Right my mission is this summer is not to end up back where I was four weeks ago. And to do that I will need Laura and Emma and everyone around me. Which will be fine.
Find a brand knew kiss out there for me :) There is one somewhere waiting for me I know that.
I just have to wait a little longer for it.
I feel very peaceful tonight. Maybe it was the sun today Ive just purely relaxed the last couple of days and taken everything at my own pace and talked to who I wanted to talk to. Its nice
I am off hopefully to uni soon, September. Am I scared? A little. I will miss my house and Cambridge, London is gonna be very different but I think I'm ready to leave and lead and start something totally new. I still wake up in the night so scared what if I don't get the grades? what do I do with my life? where do I go then? It terrifies me, four years ago I couldn't give a crap about what was going to happen with my future now I'm scared shitless.
I'm scared of loosing friends when they all leave, I'm leaving all I have ever known. Maybe its a good thing.
I need to make this the most amazing summer ever. I have to go out and just live my life completely to the full unfortunately this means stripping to my underwear and jumping in the river at grantchester meadows tomorrow, I say unfortunately, Only for those watching I'm gonna love it !!!
Currently I am listening to my top summer song, Regina Spektor - Us. Listen to it, and it will make you smile , if you have a best friends, or boyfriend or girlfriend or wife or child or anyone special too you, this song will make you think of them in the most amazing way possible. It will make you smile till the corners of your mouth touch your ears and its perfect for a sunny day.
I'm also loving the Beatles lately. Its good for walking round the city on a sunny day.
I wish it was sunny as I was writing this but its night now. I'm sitting with one tiny little lamp on so I can see the keys on the keyboard.
what do you see when you turn on the light???
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